worth less

not worthless entirely just worth less than before.
school fucked me over in that i registered for classes and they said that i never saved my registration so inherently i was dropped from all of my classes. fortunately enough, they admitted more students, so, i (luckily) was forced out of all of the classes that i registered for due to classroom capping. i have one class this semester. french. and i am quickly falling into a deep ravine i like to call a funk. the only redeeming factor is i will be able to work more to pay off more of my debts. not happy, not sad, currently just being.
its all good, though drew is the only one that reads this anyway, when he is at work, on break.

i found a receipt that i wrote on in class last semester:
methodology of reading

sentence parsing: words/ syllables/ sounds. letters and punctuation are a series of synapse stimuli. painting a cerebral visual of a world. land and water, peoples and animals all interacting. there is this one person with fair skin and blond hair. that isn't the prettiest nor the smartest but for some reason or another you like them a lot, and you hope that for their sake as well as your own that what you read is what you hoped for.

then on the back, while we were talking about Mill on the Floss by George Eliot i wrote:
Dispute over water rights
I dispute over water's right to chose.
Salt or Fresh; Hot or Cold; Solid, Liquid, or Gas.
It's not YOUR water, it's water's water.

In retrospect it is kind of funny. I don't know. I failed the final for the class so clearly I should have been paying closer attention.

i have been thinking a lot about montreal of late and need to find a picture... which i will look for before i post this....

Here it is.

happy new year

"i just wanted to let you know, i am fine."

it's another happy new year. i have work at one in the afternoon today, hooray.

so for the longest time, i have really wanted to find a copy of this one song, and for some reason i decided that today was that day. the song is called "The Moldau" it's from a piece called Smetana Ma Vlast. it means my father land. I heard it once on the radio, because i only listen to NPR/ WQXR (new york times radio// classical) when i am in my home area and driving about. i heard the song when i was at an odd point emotionally. it was July 16th or 20th of 2007, it was raining, pouring really. i was in my car in the driveway of my parents house, i had just come home from Philadelphia after having gone with an ex-girlfriend who i am still close with. i don't know what it was about the music, it was like sonic exuberance hyphenated by modesty. i can still remember the day and the feelings i felt because it was this song that punctuated it all for me. i have found it on amazon.com and i think its the exact recording i heard. here it is from youtube, not that exact recording, but i think that it does it some justice. although i guess out of context and reading this instead won't really suffice, but it is beautiful none-the-less.


here is the link to the the actual CD set on amazon.

i guess i am on the right track for the new year. i am leaving to drive to florida on sunday, i am going to visit my grandparents. i am making the trip by myself, which is nice, albeit kind of creepy to drive over one thousand miles on my lonesome. i am going because my grandfather had a partial heart failure type of deal, i don't recall the details in full but long story short he is okay now. but said event brought a sense of urgency to the fact that i haven't yet talked to my grandfather about his experiences in WW2 and i know that he fought with high distinction in the navy, so i have another mission, and so early in the year! i am hoping to record him talking about everything, then hopefully at somepoint, i can but together something for my family and posterity, if luck should bring me such a thing. plus, it will be nice to see and spend time with my grandparents. the last time i saw them, i was on 'tour' with my (former) band and we stayed at their house for a day. then i will wing on down to ft. myers to hang out with uncle for a day. i then plan either to drive to texas or key west, to finish off my travel time. i am not sure which yet, a little input would help!

happy new year, again.