"i just wanted to let you know, i am fine."
it's another happy new year. i have work at one in the afternoon today, hooray.
so for the longest time, i have really wanted to find a copy of this one song, and for some reason i decided that today was that day. the song is called "The Moldau" it's from a piece called Smetana Ma Vlast. it means my father land. I heard it once on the radio, because i only listen to NPR/ WQXR (new york times radio// classical) when i am in my home area and driving about. i heard the song when i was at an odd point emotionally. it was July 16th or 20th of 2007, it was raining, pouring really. i was in my car in the driveway of my parents house, i had just come home from Philadelphia after having gone with an ex-girlfriend who i am still close with. i don't know what it was about the music, it was like sonic exuberance hyphenated by modesty. i can still remember the day and the feelings i felt because it was this song that punctuated it all for me. i have found it on amazon.com and i think its the exact recording i heard. here it is from youtube, not that exact recording, but i think that it does it some justice. although i guess out of context and reading this instead won't really suffice, but it is beautiful none-the-less.
here is the link to the the actual CD set on amazon.
i guess i am on the right track for the new year. i am leaving to drive to florida on sunday, i am going to visit my grandparents. i am making the trip by myself, which is nice, albeit kind of creepy to drive over one thousand miles on my lonesome. i am going because my grandfather had a partial heart failure type of deal, i don't recall the details in full but long story short he is okay now. but said event brought a sense of urgency to the fact that i haven't yet talked to my grandfather about his experiences in WW2 and i know that he fought with high distinction in the navy, so i have another mission, and so early in the year! i am hoping to record him talking about everything, then hopefully at somepoint, i can but together something for my family and posterity, if luck should bring me such a thing. plus, it will be nice to see and spend time with my grandparents. the last time i saw them, i was on 'tour' with my (former) band and we stayed at their house for a day. then i will wing on down to ft. myers to hang out with uncle for a day. i then plan either to drive to texas or key west, to finish off my travel time. i am not sure which yet, a little input would help!
happy new year, again.
1.1.09
22.12.08
another time// another place
What if it were another place in time?
but instead of physical things being different, the people were different.
you would still be you, and i would still be me, but we wouldn't be
exactly the same as we are now.
who knows if we would even recognize ourselves?
it would be like the theory that everything effects everything else, only the circumstances are different. that time you hit the cat that belonged to the family up the street from you never happened. you no longer know what it is like to deal the cold hand of death. the pain and remorse that you felt that time, it is gone. and the like with your happiest day, when your little sister was born, you were 8 and you always wanted someone to play with, someone you could stand up for someday. there were complications, your father told you but everything is okay, your mother and the baby were both doing really well. at eight years old you could understand the feeling of your heart in your throat or why you crying even though everything was alright. but your father said it was okay, so it was. he brought you in to the hospital room where your mom was still half asleep from the epidural. she saw you and her face began to glow as she introduced you to your sister, and then you held her. you still remember that feeling of holding new life. the joy of being, what you had dreamed of since you were big enough to catch a ball. but that too is gone. you are just you, a clean slate. it's bittersweet. but you get to reinvent those things without knowing it.
would you trade it all away for a chance at a clean slate? to be able to control who you are but without any control. would you come out the same, or would you even want to?
sometimes i think, i would. and i think most of all that is kinda scary.
so the yesterday i caught a girl who had been shoplifting in my store for several months, we had just never been able to catch her in the act. but i got her, i am happy and sad. happy that she isn't stealing from anymore but said that it had to be right before the holiday. i guess there isn't really anything to be sad about, i didn't make her steal. she said she has a three year old son, she is my age. i guess that is a good example to set. at least he will be ignorant to it.
i went and saw good old war on friday it was a great show, i recorded some of the songs on my phone i don't know how the quality is, but i am going to try to skim the audio off of the video files and do some minimal cleaning of it. keith said that they will be taking the time from now until mid-february to get the new songs together and demo them out. i also bought him a shot of jameson. good times. thats all for now.
but instead of physical things being different, the people were different.
you would still be you, and i would still be me, but we wouldn't be
exactly the same as we are now.
who knows if we would even recognize ourselves?
it would be like the theory that everything effects everything else, only the circumstances are different. that time you hit the cat that belonged to the family up the street from you never happened. you no longer know what it is like to deal the cold hand of death. the pain and remorse that you felt that time, it is gone. and the like with your happiest day, when your little sister was born, you were 8 and you always wanted someone to play with, someone you could stand up for someday. there were complications, your father told you but everything is okay, your mother and the baby were both doing really well. at eight years old you could understand the feeling of your heart in your throat or why you crying even though everything was alright. but your father said it was okay, so it was. he brought you in to the hospital room where your mom was still half asleep from the epidural. she saw you and her face began to glow as she introduced you to your sister, and then you held her. you still remember that feeling of holding new life. the joy of being, what you had dreamed of since you were big enough to catch a ball. but that too is gone. you are just you, a clean slate. it's bittersweet. but you get to reinvent those things without knowing it.
would you trade it all away for a chance at a clean slate? to be able to control who you are but without any control. would you come out the same, or would you even want to?
sometimes i think, i would. and i think most of all that is kinda scary.
so the yesterday i caught a girl who had been shoplifting in my store for several months, we had just never been able to catch her in the act. but i got her, i am happy and sad. happy that she isn't stealing from anymore but said that it had to be right before the holiday. i guess there isn't really anything to be sad about, i didn't make her steal. she said she has a three year old son, she is my age. i guess that is a good example to set. at least he will be ignorant to it.
i went and saw good old war on friday it was a great show, i recorded some of the songs on my phone i don't know how the quality is, but i am going to try to skim the audio off of the video files and do some minimal cleaning of it. keith said that they will be taking the time from now until mid-february to get the new songs together and demo them out. i also bought him a shot of jameson. good times. thats all for now.
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